Sid: My guest Jean Blasi, I’m speaking to her at her home in Arlington, Texas, and Jean should have been a basket case. I mean at age 8 her Father died, he literally died in her arms, her mother dies, her brothers and sisters are split up. To boot, her mother wanted her aborted before she was born. So talk about rejection and fear and every other adjective you can come up with; Jean you must have had a tough life having all that rejection.
Jean: I had a very, very hard life. When a person has that much rejection in them they don’t have an ability to hear anything but ears of rejection. It’s kind of funny now, but it sure was not funny then. When I was first married my husband, he was a pharmacist, and we would go out to different dinners and things that were professional. People, the women, would just be dressed just like incredible, and some women would walk up to me and just say, oh your dress is so beautiful. And I would think why didn’t she like my hair? I mean I was literally controlled with ears of rejection and a heart of rejection.
Sid: I find that many people that God has a very special destiny for somehow the devil gets wind of it and tries to destroy them. For instance at age 3 you had double phenomena, your heart stopped, and what was the prognosis for your life?
Jean: Well, they said that I had died and they were able to bring me back, of course you and I know that God brought me back. It was that my lungs were so bad, and that’s one of the reasons I had to walk through so much rejection is the fact that when the parents died at age 8 all of the family agreed that I didn’t know to know all of these things. So then trying to make decisions I’m sure they made the best ones they knew how to at the time. But they decided that they would take all of my brothers and sisters off to Chicago and they could go off with one of the older sisters. They did not tell me this, I was 45 years old before I found out the reason they didn’t take me was that my lung were so bad they knew that I would die, and I would not make it but no one told me.
Sid: And that just fed into that spirit of rejection.
Sid: Now, you get married, your husband is a believer, you’re not a believer, you come into some very difficult times, he’s about ready to lose the drug store that he owns and you don’t know what’s going to happen next. How in the world did you come up with the idea of do you think we should ask God for help?
Jean: Well, I think that’s one of the most incredible designs, supernatural things that have been in my life. From the time that I was a little girl I didn’t know what this presence was until I met Jesus and understood the presence of God, but I don’t remember ever not feeling this presence around me even as a little child. I would say things to my new mother, I would say when I’d trip or something I would say, “Oh, I think God’s telling me, my shoestrings untied.” And I would always refer back to Him, and yet I really didn’t know what that was. And so I just always remembered His presence, He would tell me things. So I guess there just always been something about me that knew that He’s the one to turn to even though to me He was God way up there in the sky. I felt like that because I had so many in my family die. Just like my first daughter dying with a lung disease I thought that that meant that I was a reject of God. So there’s no way that He could ever love me. I was just a reject, and I honestly believed with all my heart that He created some people, and he liked them, and some He didn’t. And He didn’t like me, and I was just a reject.
Sid: And again that’s that rejection that keeps slipping into you. Did you hear God’s voice in an audible fashion when He said that to you?
Jean: Yes, I did. When we were standing in the living room, when you were referring to when my husband had lost his drug store. I was saying “Let’s ask God.” Well the next day after we asked God I was in the living room again and this voice sounded like it came into the front door of our house and audibly He said, “Jean, Normal will not always be just a Pharmacist, he will be a minister.” And I’m sure that He might have even liked to have said to me, I would be one but there was no way I could have believed that because I didn’t even think He liked me. And I turned around and it frightened me because I thought a man had walked in the living room.
Sid: And did He tell you what to do after you lost your business?
Jean: Well, my husband said, “Well, I just feel like what He’s saying is that I need to start checking out some openings that I read about and I think I’ll check those out, and then He’ll tell us which one to take, which one to go to.” And that’s exactly how it happened.
Sid: And Jean you were in bed one night and you had a mysterious visitor that awakened you, tell me about this visitor.
Jean: Yes, I was asleep and I was suddenly awakened. Right at the foot of our bed was Jesus, He was so glorious, He was just Throne Room resurrected light rays of love and He stood there with His hands and His arms out to me and every part of His being from the head to toe was just rays, glorious rays of unconditional love just coming out of Him, and really infusing Himself into me and going right into me and the joy. He was love, He was joy. I kind of laugh because I said, “I didn’t know anything about goose bumps then,” and I was just goose bumps from my head to my feet and warmth and joy and love. I remember in my spirit I just, it’s like I just ran to Him, and I said, “Jesus, I didn’t know anybody could feel like this in their heart.” And I had always had pain, and sorrow and grief. This joy that He had was, just my heart was full of joy and happiness and love. And I said, “Oh Jesus I didn’t know anybody could feel like this inside, and He just stood there just infusing me with Himself.” And then just disappeared, and I didn’t know what to do with it. So I kept pondering what do I do with this, I don’t know what this means.
Sid: Now, you still weren’t a believer at this point.
Sid: But you had almost promptings to watch television, Kathryn Kuhlman would come on, and Oral Roberts would come on, what did you think when you saw them?
Jean: I would just burst into tears and I’d say, “Oh, Jesus they know you.” Now, I didn’t even know him, but maybe I knew Him some way, somehow. I don’t know, but I would look at them and I’d just say “Oh Jesus they know You, and I know that I can never know You, I know that I’m a reject, You don’t like me, all my family died, and there’s something wrong with me, but I want to know You Jesus.” And then another time I just felt drawn, I’d be doing something in the house and just be drawn to go turn the TV on. There was Oral Roberts, and I would just sit on the floor and just weeping just because His presence was causing me weep I loved Him so much.
Sid: Out of curiosity did you ever see Christian shows and say, “Well, it’s Christian, but they don’t know you?”
Jean: Well, I didn’t even go that far I would turn on a show and I’d go “Oh, they don’t know You Jesus,” and I’d just turn it off, and I didn’t even think Christian, it was some preacher on there and I’d go “They don’t know You.”
Sid: You know even today, I can look at Christian television, and I can tell the ones that have intimacy with God, and the ones that don’t. And it’s like I mean it’s such a contrast.
Jean: Well, the difference is life and death, or nothing happening. But when someone knows Jesus there’s a life giving Spirit, I don’t care…
Sid: Okay, you started going to a church, but it was very legalistic and they were very interested, and you were a concert pianist, they were very interested in your ability to play the piano and teach the piano. But they told you some horrible things.
Jean: Well, they did. I was already there playing for all their choirs, I was the church organist. God has gifted me greatly in ability to cook. I was cooking all kinds of meals, and some of the woman got a hold of me one day and said, “You should be giving piano lessons, God has given you a great gift and if you don’t use it you are going to lose it, He’s going to take it away from you.” And I did not want to give piano lessons, I had tried that. It was not where my flow was and I didn’t like it, but I though well, “If I want to get saved and I want God to like me, then I need to give piano lessons, but God knew what He was doing.
Sid: You know our time is slipping away and I want to talk about your brand new book, “Prophetic Fishing.” Now if I would have named it I would call it the “Whispers of God.” Because what you do is you urge people to lay aside all of their formulas, all of what they’ve relied on their whole life and rely on the whispers of God. And the most amazing things happen to you we are going to find out some wonderful things that happened to you. Some very special things that happened to you, but do you believe that everyone can operate out of the whispers of God?
Jean: Absolutely, no doubt whatever. When we belong to Jesus the Holy Spirit comes to live in our spirit, we have a personal Spirit. He comes to live in us to lead, to guide and show us the way, to talk to us to be our friend; He’s our greatest friend you could ever have. And sometimes His voice is just something you kind of know in your knower, I call it a knower, it’s not a booming voice out of heaven, but you learn to kind of listen to the little check in your spirit if He doesn’t want you to do something, it will kind of be like nothing real big, or you will actually just know something and you move on that little urge, and when you do that God loves obedience.