Sid: My guest Jean Blasi, I’m speaking to her at her home in Arlington, Texas. We found out on yesterday’s broadcast that if anyone every had an opportunity to have a spirit of rejection it was Jean. At age 3 literally her heart stopped, and she was told that by the time that she was 30 that she would be in a wheelchair. At age 8 she lost both parents, her siblings left her, she was adopted three times. When she got married she did not know God, she had a heart for God her whole life, but she did not know God. And she heard the audible voice of God, and as a matter of fact He came in one night and awakened her and she felt His love. She was like, is it fair to say Jean that you were on a search for knowing this Jesus that came to visit you?
Jean: Yes I was.
Sid: And then you got into a church, but it was a legalistic church and they said, “If you don’t give piano lessons the implication was that you’re not going to go the heaven.” So you hated giving piano lessons especially one mother that rather than leaving her child off she would sit and watch, tell me about that mother.
Jean: Actually now it was a very funny story because she wound up my spiritual mother bringing me to Christ but she would sit there, and she would just really bother me with her sitting there. And she kept looking at me and I would have these thoughts, nobody has that kind of love that she’s trying to act like she has. And just you know, there’s nobody like that, and so she would always just sit there and it would really bother me and then one day she said “Do you think that maybe I could stay a little bit and we could have coffee?” And I said, “Oh, sure.” And inside I was thinking that sure is not really good manners, to invite yourself, but I said “Sure.” We went out to my kitchen table, and she had these deep blue pools of life and love pouring out her eyes, and she just looked right in and she just got my heart with these words, she said, “Jean, has anyone ever told you that Jesus loves you?” And I said, “No.” And then she said, “Has anyone ever told you He died for you, to take your place and for your sins and to make you right with God.” And I said, “No.” And so she told me about this, and some reason we didn’t pray, maybe she thought I wasn’t ready. She left, I went into my living room, was sitting in my husband’s beige recliner and that same presence that came into my bedroom that night, the room just began to fill up with the glorious rays of the Throne Room presence, and begin to come all over me. And I was sitting there just crying my heart out saying “Jesus I don’t know the words to say, I don’t know what you say to get saved and so I just said, “Well, would you just help Yourself to me.” And the result of this book is me saying, “Jesus would You help Yourself to me.” And I knew in one split second I knew that I knew that I knew that I belonged to Him, I was saved and I’d be His forever, that we were now friends. I knew all of this so instantly.” And then this lady called me, I mean I called her and I said, “Oh, I found Jesus, I found Jesus”, and she said, “Well, have you asked Him for the baptism of the Holy Spirit?” And I said, “Well, I didn’t know there was one.” And so she was trying to explain, I went over to her house. And see you don’t have to be all uptight about everything; your heart has to be right, if your heart is hungry and your heart is searching you may not do it all right on the outside. So I didn’t know what…
Sid: I did everything wrong and I still managed to get saved. I never even heard the word repentance, I didn’t even know that word existed, I just prayed a two word prayer, “Jesus help.” No formula, no theological degree, “Jesus help.” And He showed up.
Jean: He likes that Sid, He so likes that, and that’s what He did with me. Well, I went into my bedroom the next morning and I just said, “Jesus, now she said that you can have this, and I don’t understand what it’s about, but I don’t know what speaking in a language means, I don’t know what that is, I don’t know what to do.” And oh, here He comes again the same Throne Room glorious presence fills the room, and here He’s all over me and I just start pouring out in a prayer language that I knew nothing of so fast, so fast, so strong I could not stop it, I don’t know who long I went on. And then all of a sudden this kind of slowed down and I quit, and I saw His hand, literally just that glorious hand, it was the presence, it was the anointing go inside my heart and He just touched me.
Sid: Did you literally see a hand go inside of you?
Jean: I saw the form of a hand, now I would probably say the anointing in the form of a hand, I don’t know. I literally saw a hand go inside and touch my being, my heart, my spirit. And when that hand came back out I said, “Oh, Jesus, I don’t feel like I ever had a pain my life,” I was totally free of grief and sorrow and pain and remorse, it was just incredible. And yet I had this new language that would be the power that would help me to live the Christian life because I knew I couldn’t do it on my own.
Sid: What happened to tall that rejection and pain and hurt?
Jean: Well, the Lord took care of that in another way, He immediately got me with a group of believers that were very powerful. And this one lady, we’re still connected today 35 years later; we never see each other, but we’re connected. And she said to me after one of the meetings she said, “Jean, Honey it is so obvious that you found Jesus and you’re just full of life and love and excited and everything. But she said, “Honey, you need deliverance and I said, “Is that more of Jesus?” And she said, “Yes.” And I said, “Well, I want that.” And so she took me back in her room and she, and her face blanched white and she said “Is there any change that you died when you were 3 years old?” And I said, “Yes.” And she said, “There’s a spirit of death,” and she cast that out of me that entered me when I was sitting on my daddy’s lap when he died. And then at that point and then later again started finding that same process and then she said and she commanded rejection, she took authority over a spirit of rejection, broke it, and His power cast it out of me and then fear. And I don’t know if you have time but I would like to tell you a story about the fear how horrible it was.
Sid: I think that it’s important, please.
Jean: Okay, I was so full of fear, I was afraid of everything, everybody, and then especially after our first daughter died. Then we had a son and I was so afraid every day he had breathing problems when he was first born and every day I was petrified, it was horrors of horrors, and then we had a daughter and immediately the first month of her life she was in an oxygen tent in the hospital with pneumonia and I just knew, I would beg and beg God please don’t let my kids die, don’t let my son and my daughter. And then my husband before I got delivered from a spirit of fear, he would go to work and I knew that it took him ten minutes to get to his drug store, and when he’d walk out that door I would just go into like rigors, my muscles would be taunt and I had migraines, my body, by physical body was a mess. I would beg God those, ten minutes please don’t let him get killed, please, please. And you need to understand I lived 13 years of my married life like this and when it was time for him to get off work and then I would say, don’t let the furnace blow up and don’t let anybody come in with a gun and shoot him in the pharmacy to get drugs. And I lived my days like this, my children were not allowed to go into anyone else’s car because I thought if they are going to get killed I want to die with them. Now this was the life Iived for 13 years after I was married. And after my friend delivered me of the spirit of fear within two months I Kirk and Kim, my son and daughter, with a youth group from Texas to a Colorado on a ski trip and never was worried a minute about them.
Sid: You know my sister had that same experience only she wasn’t even a believer, I took her to a deliverance meeting and the spirit of fear was cast out of her and she hasn’t been the same since. I might add that when she saw the reality of the invisible world especially the evil that’s the thing that drew her to absolutely make a 100% commitment to the Lord.
Jean: God will use everything won’t he Sid, there’s nothing He doesn’t use.
Sid: As a matter of fact, I think that it would be good if people had a healthy understanding of the reality of evil they wouldn’t be so seeker sensitive they would be more God sensitive.
Jean: Absolutely agree, it’ll paralyze your life, it’ll pull, it’ll keep you from ever knowing the Lord. And religion in the form of somebody thinks they got to work their way to God and try to be perfect, and He’s not looking for perfection or performance in us Sid. He just is looking for our heart, for us to love Him and to love, to obey Him and walk with Him.