Our Guest Rebecca Totilo
Sid: My guest is Rebecca Park Totilo. I’m speaking to her at a hotel at a hotel in Wichita, Kansas and we’re talking about her brand new book “His Majesty Requests An Invitation to the Royal Wedding of the Lamb.” I’m so excited about this book because this book for the very first time takes the ancient customs of the Hebraic wedding. Not the Jewish weddings we have today, but at the time that Jesus walked in the flesh. And shows how many of the statements of Jesus in the New Testament don’t make sense unless you understand the context of the Jewish wedding which then will prepare you for the intimacy of the wedding supper of the Lamb. And not everyone is going to that wedding supper, only those that have made Jesus Lord. And the best way I know to make Jesus Lord is to develop intimacy with Him. And as you develop intimacy with Him you understand what He is saying of the Jewish wedding in the New Covenant it helps develop this intimacy. Anyway on yesterday’s broadcast you’ll be really upset with me if I don’t ask Rebecca a question.
Rebecca: (Laughing)
Sid: We found out that her background she was raped as a young person, her father died when she was young, she fell into drugs, into the New Age. She literally had Satan come to her in her dream, and Jesus came to her 3 times and the 3rd time He said “This is your last chance.” And then the next day her sister who was a Christian said to her that she really had to get rid of this the rock and roll music that is in her house and a lot of other things and she was a little shaken because she was comfortable with these things. That’s why the Bible calls it a familiar spirit that she was familiar and they were familiar with her. So you had this moment what did you decide it was your last chance?
Rebecca: Hm. I certainly did know that because I had already brushed death a couple of times and especially when we were talking about yesterday with a handful of pills and following in you know chasing it down with straight vodka. You don’t really realized how far you’ve slip; you know it’s almost like the frog in the kettle where the waters heating up around you because you’ve been in it and you’ve been comfortable with it and you’ve grown to acquire a development towards these things. And I do remember that night that I came home because I lived right next to bars. I was actually one block over where all I had to do was walk around the corner and I’d be there. I can remember that night just taking a handful of speed and then going out and drinking and not even realizing that I had gone from you know drinking orange juice and vodka to just straight vodka. And then it was just too easy, it had become so easy and comfortable to me and I went home for a minute to go get something and I became very ill and when I began to get sick I had actually you know the whole pills had come up out of me. And I knew that at that time that even though I wasn’t walking with the Lord I knew that it was the grace of God because I saw that all of these pills. You see I was so drunk that I didn’t even know I had taken that many pills. They had not even dissolved in my body you know I hadn’t digested them yet. And so it was God’s grace that He had me go home (Laughing) and get this out of my body.
Sid: What might have happened if you hadn’t?
Rebecca: Well I would die for sure because of the alcohol and the speed racing not knowing which way…
Sid: So when He said that it was your last chance it really was.
Rebecca: Hm, hm yes He knew the road I was on was heading me in the wrong direction for sure.
Sid: But you finally decided to go to your apartment to get rid of the junk. What did it feel like when you got rid of the rock music and all of the paraphernalia and things you had?
Rebecca: Well it was a euphoric feeling to get rid of the heaviness because you’re comfortable with it but at the same time it’s a weight on your shoulders.
Sid: It’s an oppression.
Rebecca: It’s oppressive and depressing and my life had become so dark and this apartment was a dungy old dark apartment and it was filled with darkness. And it was a terrible part of town and so immediately I felt the release just that burden had been lifted off of me.
Sid: And the wonderful miracle is you got set free from your addiction to drugs and alcohol.
Rebecca: Yes.
Sid: But tell me about you went into ministry you were part of a wonderful discipleship program Youth with a Mission. But you were $10,000 in debt.
Rebecca: Do you believe that?
Sid: I mean with you full time with Youth with a Mission how do you settle that $10,000 debt?
Rebecca: Well I don’t know how I even created that much debt as a teenager, but here I was in college.
Sid: But it takes no talent with that plastic called credit cards.
Rebecca: Oh yes, I no and I had bought a new car and I had used the credit card for you know purchases and you know going to school and everything. Woo it added up quick! So here I was I had been set free and now it’s like we all recognized that I needed a drastic change in my lifestyle because it would have been too easy for me to fall back in the same habits again with the same people around living in the same area and everything. And so the Lord was showing me it was time to get out of there and get out of there quick. Now it was about 6 or 8 weeks before Youth with a Mission decide the trans-school was going to start. Here it was in the summertime and I was working and I thought it would just be a miracle to have this happen. So we began to just have yard sales and get rid of all of the junk in my house and my car. I actually had some people that helped contribute to help me get out of this mess really fast. And within 6 weeks I was debt free and on an airplane heading towards Hawaii to go to this trans-school. And they had and I did make application with them and they had of course accepted me immediately.
Sid: Not just debt free but free.
Rebecca: Yes.
Sid: What was it like to be free?
Rebecca: (Laughing) Well that was something new for me because I had years of bondage and you know this stuff that I had been dragging around with me for years on me. But of course for YWAM it was rude awakening for them too. (Laughing) because here I was typically you know students that attend the discipleship trans-school are those that have been born again believers who have been raised in a church or have been walking with the Lord for some time you know and they’re just seeking the Lord for a deeper walk with Him. But here I was coming straight off the streets you know. (Laughing) and you know had been living in fornication and you know a terrible lifestyle and I was on the plane going there. And you know they just had a handful when they got me (Laughing).
Sid: But you know Rebecca I believe that we are right on the verge of seeing 100’s and 1000’s of young people just like yourself radically saved and the church better get ready for people like that.
Rebecca: Right.
Sid: Now tell me your not Jewish, where did this Jewish burden come from?
Rebecca: Well I’ve always been curious about my own roots and I’ll tell you the truth I haven’t got very far in my own research of my genealogy you know but that was sort of how it all began. My husband and I was sort of curious about our own you know where we came from in our families bloodline. But what really was stirring inside me was this discontent with the church its self. And being from the streets and living in that lifestyle I was really more comfortable with ministering on the streets with the prostitutes and the drug dealers then I was with the people in the church. Everyone really agreed with me they said “Yeah, your right you really do belong out there.” So having had for instance having had an abortion, in my past I knew how to minister to woman who had been there and who had been in that situation where they had to do that and I was able to minister to those people. That’s where the Lord had placed me. So I never was comfortable inside a pew you know inside a church. And so I guess I’ve always sort of looked beyond that and looking and searching for the truth. And it was actually several years ago while I was pregnant with my fourth child, I had just had my third child, and I would write in the nighttime it would sort of be like 10 to 2 in the morning I would write. And then at the 2:00 feeding I would feed the baby and then from 2:00 to 5:00 I would get on my knees and kneel by his crib and pray for the nation. And I just had such a heavy burden for what was coming upon America I just knew something was going to happen. Now I’m talking about 1997 – ’98 of course prior to Y2K and 911 and everything so nobody was really thinking in that way I don’t think as far as thinking that something was going to come. I had this sense the feeling that something was coming and I did this for 2 years straight. I did I never went to sleep. I would go to bed at 5:00 in the morning and I did this over and over again praying and seeking God and saying “I want to know the truth and I just want to know what the truth is; I want to know what’s on Your heart God.” And I had a passion and burden to know Him in a deeper way. So when I was doing this I suddenly became like Jeremiah the weeping prophet I mean I was crying all the time. I told my husband you know it was just a heaviness seeing what was coming and how people had just sort of fallen asleep and weren’t aware of a hunger for the truth in knowing God in a deeper way. And so I just began to say it for the nations and the Lord began to give me dreams and visions of things that were going to come. And that’s why I had such a heavy burden and that I weeped because I saw what was going to come upon America and I believers if they didn’t wake up. And it was really during this time in my pursuit for truth. And I mean it’s just a simple question and anybody can ask that question you don’t have to know a lot to say “God I want to know what the truth is.” I just over and over asked Him and He would tell me “You know what I really don’t think you really want to know this.” And I would say “God I really want to know, tell me” and that’s when I became weepy and cried because He did show me things. And it was in that question that He began to give me a heart and love for the Jews and for Israel.
Sid: You know what I’m finding Rebecca and I said this for many years but I believe it’s truer today than it’s ever been the dividing line of the church, the dividing line of the nonbelievers will be the same it’s going to be Israel. Oi vey we’re out of time…
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